Love Note: One

 Earlier today, I had this sweet, warm, delicate post written about how I feel my work changing. It was an announcement of sorts, a warning if you will, about the fact that I'm not actually here to help you tidy your houses. My work is about teaching you how to heal yourself so you can stop fucking around and GO BE THE HEALING FORCE FOR GOOD IN THE WORLD THAT YOU CAME HERE TO BE! I was going to tell it softly, as to not alarm. I've always had so much resistance to it looking like I'm using fear to sell.   Anyway, so I had it all typed up and I went to get a haircut and I came back and opened my laptop and saw news that so deeply offends my senses that I deleted my message.   We're past that now. So here we go. Real talk.   We have run out of time. The world is on fire in a thousand different ways. We need all who wish to participate in the loving transformation of the world to tend their bullshittery that consumes their sacred resources (time, energy, passion, money, brain power, creativity, etc.). We have to release our attachments to things and old wounds. We need to finish this work. It's time to move on to what we came to this planet in this lifetime to do.   I'm about to close registration on the workshops that I use to help people free themselves from the bullshittery. I now believe that this is the last time I will offer the Travel Lightly Project. (I have no idea if I'll continue offering space healing workshops or not but at least there's  the book. ) If you need something radical to shake up your life, say yes to this work. Because your life matters now.   Here's my offer:  If you want to join the Travel Lightly Project,  do that here .   If you can't yet commit to the 6-month experience, then consider the  21-Day Space Healing Workshop . I'm offering it at $21, that is literally one dollar a day to help you change your life. Register  here . Note: If we are not already Facebook friends,  send me  a friend request so I can add you to the FB group.   Do this. I'm being strongly called to move forward into deeper work and I want you to come, too. The world is waiting for you. You are worth it. Yes, I'm sure.  Note: Registration for both workshops (TLP includes the 21-Day Space Healing workshop) will close at sunset today, June 19, 2017.

In March, my brain was not functioning well and my body hurt so badly that I was weeping about it in my doctor's office.

Fibromyalgia.

That's a label I'd been outrunning for about fourteen years. My doctor back then said it was likely the source of my fatigue, brain fog, body pain, etc. but that I was already doing all of the recommended things to help myself. They also said that I was really young (around 29 at the time) and that once it was written in my chart it could never be unwritten. I said no thank you and never really talked about it again but I was always reading, always looking for ways to fix what wasn't working inside of me.

Fourteen years is a damn fine run if you ask me but now it has ended.

I agreed to the label this time and also to take one, very small dose of a new medication (which is working really well). For weeks, The Beautiful One and I discussed what was happening in my body, comparing what I learned in the world to what she was learning in nursing school. My energy level and some of the pain began to improve.

And eventually, I told her that I heard (in my head) that my body needed meat. This was quite a shock after 10+ years eating only vegetarian food. (To be clear, it's not that one can't eat balanced and nutritionally complete foods as a vegetarian. I just sensed my food choices were not cutting it for me.) I received lots of signs from my body--constantly battling low iron, thinning hair and nails, low B12 to name just a few. A Facebook inquiry revealed that many, many others had resumed eating meat after long spells of eating only vegetarian food.

The Voices In My Head were screaming loudly and the only problem was... I couldn't imagine eating meat. 

So I spent months whispering to my body, "if you need meat, you're going to have to give me a desire to eat meat. That's the only way I'll know." During the summer, I changed my meal plan again and started experiencing a clearing of the brain dysfunction that has haunted me for many years. I knew eating the new way was true for me because my body, energy, and brain responded excitedly. I felt better than I had in decades. And then I started craving meat. I still couldn't imagine eating it but cravings came.

One night about six weeks ago, I was prepping my vegetarian food while The Beautiful One prepped tacos for her and her mother. In that exact moment, my cravings shifted into loud and clear desire. So I ate the taco meat and a steak the next day, and more meat almost daily since then. I have no idea if it will always feel true for me to eat this way but I know that for today, for me, it feels undeniably true.

All of this affirms my long held belief that there is no single right choice for us to make about our bodies, or even as we move through the seasons of our lives. I suspect we'll be talking more about this in the future--how to listen to our bodies, how to have the courage to challenge our own beliefs, and how to release what we believed would always be true for us when it is time for a change. 

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