Life is hard and we store much of our old pain in our bodies and homes. Pain makes life messy and that is okay. This mess is okay.

you tell me you are usually okay
you are strong
you do a lot and can usually manage it
but this is different; everything is piling up

In March, my brain was not functioning well and my body hurt so badly that I was weeping about it in my doctor's office. Fibromyalgia. 

For most of my life, I didn’t recognize that white privilege was even a thing, that a neighbor might call the police because they feel afraid of someone walking the sidewalk loving winter and having a good time with their partner. My white skin protected me from that knowledge. I’m having to work hard to learn it, actively seeking to understand the way white supremacy uses me and how I use it, mostly without even trying.

Let us be brave enough to let go when it is time to make space for something new, to remember that this is not Hotel California and we can check out any time we want to leave.

According to my rough estimate, I’m the best kept secret for somewhere between one-third and half of the people I’ve worked with in the last nearly nine years. This is one healing path but there's another that holds more promise. 

There is much freedom in unsubscribing. No fighting. No bitterness. Just letting go. This school, their model, their inspirational leadership is no longer true for me. I'm releasing my grip on them and him, honoring that their way is not my way. In this, I get to continue down my road in peace and with space to welcome more true teachers. And they get to do the same.

You've spent much of your life running behind, scrambling to catch up, barely keeping your head above water. It does't have to be this way.

I dreamed I had Alzheimer's.

In the dream, of course, I didn't know. There was a lot of confusion on my part, and spaces of missing time, but the people around me behaved completely normally. That was a red flag.

When your loved ones/people you know/strangers are in crisis, don't make it harder for them.